You Won't Lose Me..

I fell asleep waiting for my Dub Dub to come to my place. Again, he was watching me while sleeping in my underwear. I guess he was turned on that he went up to me on the bed and woke me with a kiss. He was in his underwear too when he crawled into bed and started to make love to me. Hahahaha! Well, I won't be giving any details about what happened because I will be writing something more important than passion and sex. (But, I think sex is important, too. Hahahaha!) Kidding aside, now here's what happened. After having lunch, we went our separate ways. I went to the gym while he went to the next city for an interview for a new job. And you know what happened? He got the job! I was so happy for my Dub Dub. He picked me up in the gym, as usual. As we are about to go eating-out, he remembered that he had to go home and give Diggy and Lenden their medicines. So, I suggested that I go home with him because I also missed his nephews. He was preparing their dosages when I receive an SMS from my friend Ricky. Ricky was offering me a job where I can earn a bit of money. I will be posing as their nude model for videos and photos to be sold in Europe. I shared it to Myqel. I didn't know it hurt his feelings and made him feel bad. After he gave then medication, he just disappeared from the room. I just received an SMS from him saying; "I don't wanna lose my alch3mist! Please don't tell me the details of that photo shoot because it will only make me feel bad." My heart broke with those words. I didn't know what to say. I went out the room and looked for him outside. I saw him lying down on his bed. He was sad. I asked him if everything was okay. He told me that everything wasn't right. He had mixed bad emotions. I wanna hug him at that instant but I can't since his nephews would see us. So, I suggested that we go home so that we can talk. When we got home, I run unto him and gave him a kiss but he tried not to kiss me, I just gave him hug instead. I know something was wrong. He laid down on my bed and I felt the sadness in his eyes. We agreed a long time ago that we shouldn't keep any secrets between the two of us. So, I told him that we should talk it over. We were sitting on the bed together. I was facing him and looking in his eyes. I saw the sadness. I could cry looking through those eyes. I asked him to tell me what he was feeling. He never said a word. I asked again. He never said a word, as if he haven't heard. I told him that I don't to see him so sad. It breaks my heart to see him so gloomy. I hugged him tight and I started to get teary-eyed. He hugged me also and then he started to cry. He was in tears. It broke my heart again. He was telling me not to go with the photo shoot. He is contented already with what we had. He is okay if we take the lowest accommodation for the ship back home. He told me that my salary is more than enough for both of us. We don't need extra money! He doesn't want me to go nude just for extra income. He was also telling me that I am the fourth person who told him about a photo shoot and his other relationship ended because of that excuse. He was so afraid to lose me. He never felt like this before. The last time he was so in-love was with his ex-girlfriend. He was sobbing for a long time. It broke my heart so much to see him crying. All I could do was to hug him so tightly. Constantly assuring him that I will be at his side. That I will be staying with him and that he is never gonna lose me in anyway possible. I saw the love in his eyes. He loves me more anything in the world. When he felt better, we ate dinner together, then we slept in the raw before I went to work at 11 o'clock in the evening. I kissed him good night and I whispered "I love you!". I will be off work soon. He'll be asleep while he waits for me, and I'll wake him up with a kiss from his sweet alch3mist. I love you my sweet prince.