My Favorite Mistake

I remember the night when I met Myq. I call him my sweet prince. It was February 9th. A week after my birthday. Lancelot invited me for a night-out because he will be introducing me to Whynn, my ultimate crush. It turned out to be the night where I met Myq. I was first atttracted to him because he was tall and he had a nice lean body. I also liked his sleepy spanish eyes which disappears everytime he smiles. His innocent looks and sweet face made me fall for him that very night. I made my first move. I don't know how I started a conversation with him but we had one hell of a talk. He talked about love, trust and frustrations. I also had my share of these things so I shared to him all of my frustrations also. (I didn't know if I got his attention, but when I asked him one time about that night, he told me that I stirred him with all my point of view.) I met him again the following day, he acted like we didn't had that conversation. I didn't reacted to it. I gave myself the thought that I'm not one on Myqel's type. I met him again on another night out, that was February 16th, I was a bit excited to see him but the usual thought that he won't be minding me at all gave me a reason that I won't be enjoying the night. I just went with my usual buddy, Lancelot. We partied, we drank. (Well, the group spends a lot on alcohol, pizza and fast food.) I saw him smiling. I saw him drank. I saw him kissing Whynn. I saw him kissing Levi. I hurt me a bit, but thinking that I don't have every right to get jealous or to get mad, I just enjoyued the night. I told myself that I just wanna be drunk tonight.When I got a bit tipsy, I was staring at him and smiling. Gavin caught me doing that and announced. Kilik likes Myqel. I just said, of course, I liked him from the very first day I saw him. I even gave out the exact date and place. He laughed and said: "Wow! You rememebered everything?" I just smiled and I know I blushed a bit. I was tipsy but I spoke with a sober heart. He went up to me. Held my hand and then sat beside me. I asked him to stay for a while and he was so kind to have stayed. I hugged him from behind and I rested my head on his back. I dozed off to dreamland. With Myqel's heartbeat lulling me to sleep. Here comes February 21st, Myq sent me a plain text message. It said; "Bleeeeh!" I replied; "Hello babe!" He didn't like the idea of being called Babe. I told him that I call everyone babe. He didn't like the idea. I didn't know what I did but we were back on talking about my feelings towards him. He also told me that he almost fell for me on the night that I fell asleep on his back. He told me that it was the sweetest thing that someone ever did to him. I asked him if we could go for more, spend more time together, be together, be in-love with one another. He refused since the pack would disagree. It was against the rule. I asked him if we could somehow break a few rules. Life was short. A love found one time may get lost for a lifetime. He told me that he could not do it. He likes me but he couldn't break the rules. But, he doesn't want me to leave the group. He still wants to see me there, mingling, talking ang enjoying the company.