It Ripped a Piece of My Heart...

Last Saturday, I was waiting for Dub Dub to come home so we can go ahead to the pool party. I was waiting for him. He told me that he had to go to the Seminary to decorate a few arcs. I was disappointed. I tried not to show it but Dub Dub already know me that well. He knows when I'm sad or confused. He knows when I'm terrified or disappointed. He knows me from the tip of my dark brown hair to tip of my toe. I was so hard on him that night that I was aware that I was hurting him emotionally. The third time that I tried to hurt him again made me feel so bad. It pierced my heart and when I looked at him tears started to fall from his eyes. I could not stand seeing him that way. I promised myself not to hurt him by any chance. I broke that promise that night. I rushed to his side. Held his head by hands looked into those tearing eyes. I could feel the pain he went through. I was just so hard on him. I never realized that until I saw him cry. It ripped a piece of me apart. I hugged him tight. I would want not to let him go. I was stupid to do that and I told him that I would never ever do that to him again. I want him to feel special. I want him to feel loved and important. He is very very important to me because I love him so!