Christmas Magic

I can feel the cold wind sweeping the bleak streets as I walk. The clouds dim and the Winter stars are far less brighter than the Summer stars. Christmas breeze is blowing , makes me reminisce my childhood Christmas years, those wonderful things. I can feel the child in me that makes me smile as if the years never came and time was taboo. The Simbang Gabi that I missed much, since I decided to move into an entirely new place afar from my family, relatives, and friends but of course, with new friends around to cheer my day up; the puto 'maya', cocoa, and the free coffee offered after each Simbang Gabi session, the Christmas songs that hum the holiday air, me , my sister with my neighbors and cousins doing the Christmas carols at places where we don't have any acquaintances at, crafting Christmas lanterns with classmates, waiting for Mum and Pop to prepare the things that we love to have and eat. My point is, I missed my childhood Christmas years. It was the best ever. The memories linger in me. A time that people from different places come home for something that even they can't explain. No explanation needed. There is something in this season that we don't see in other holidays -- Something that makes us love. Even adults have no time to share their hardships and is always on the go to share how lucky they were to see the people that they like and do what they love to do, depicted on smiles that fit the season of love. Time for little children to extend their arms towards generous people -- which we call ' assumptive attitude' Hmmm! Why didn't I think of this every time I pitch my sales to customers? Hehehe...

I have to tell you that I'm a big fan of St. Nicholas with his reindeers and I believe in the magic that it brings to the heart of each and every being.. my biggest secret, actually. The story simply touches my heart and anyone's heart who believes in it. Influenced by the Western culture, stockings became a part of our lives or soccer knee socks that we hung on the windows believing Santa is just around waiting for you to go to your slumber and would tip toe and would pass through the chimneys without getting dirty and put the gifts equivalent to the deeds that we did from the start of the year, the more obedient we are, the wonderful our gifts are. . Imagine the magic.... But I believed in these little things that makes me and my family happy and make people, who believe in their children's happiness, happy. With these little things makes life so big that makes us too busy to check on other's fault and always find goodness in very individual. MAGIC right? hehehe. It seemed to me that I'm here in Wonderland or the Disneyland but never... because I was in North Pole where it's cold, where I saw the abominable snowman and where the hearts were the warmest; where no evil could disturb the happiness that I felt . Dreaming of those years where me and my cousins would watch the gifts laid underneath the Christmas tree and spend time, before going to bed, thinking of the present that's inside of those beautifully wrapped gifts. And pray each night that my robot or my GI Joe is in that box. I assume you would smile on these wonderful little things that makes us happy that you can relate to.

Nothing compares to the thrill that it gives each and every one of us every time the BIG people gives us a 'Go' signal to open those presents. The thrill maybe simple as it may seem ...but magical. Even I, in my young adulthood, simply can't explain how and why. But I won't dwell thinking on the reason. As long as I see the people and feel myself happy, then that would make me happy for one reason. The season has a reason to make us smile and happy.

Hope you enjoyed your every Christmas experience. I've enjoyed mine since I was a kid. Have a merry Christmas always.

Gifts 'Neath The Tree

That's me in the red shorts holding out a gift wrapped in red. I have gifts for everyone. One for Dad. One for Mum. One for my sister. And for my Dub Dub. That gift I'm holding if from my Mum. I think know what's inside. Dub Dub will be spending Christmas with his family in the city. I'm celebrating Christmas here in my home town. It is very cold here when it's December. Sparkling lights all over town. Children's carol fills the air. Here I am, by the Christmas tree. Hoping to see Dub Dub by my side. I miss him and he'll be coming after Christmas.

Wow! Look at those gifts. Our very first Christmas with all these beautiful and nicely wrapped gifts underneath our tree.

Naked Santa

Christmas Time Again...

Christmas Photos

Christmas Decoration

Bought this set about seven or eight years ago. It's still what we use everytime Christmas is here. Of course according to history, Christ may have been born on the fall, like October. It was the feast of the Winter Solstice that the Christians renamed as Christmas. So, most of the Christams traditions that we know are Pagan. Like the Christmas tree and Santa Clause.

Here's our Christmas tree adorned in red and gold. And oh! The gifts underneath the tree. This is the first time we have gifts for everyone in the family. Next year, we hope we could extend to me cousins, uncles and aunts as well.

Christmasquerade

That's me and Chloe. She's so pretty. I like her a lot. Everybody likes her. If only I was a little bit straighter. Hahahahaha...

This is my Team. Team Psylocke. We work together to assist our customer who are using Quickbooks Payroll in the US. Hey! Where's my mask? I have to put it on or I'll scare them all. Hahahahaha!

This is Evarlyn. She's cute and simple. I like her, too.

Shoes...

Nothing! I just like shoes. My new shoes.

Old Friends

Haven't seen Jaypee in a long time! Missed this guy. We've been friends since high school. So good to meet up with old friends. Especially if it's Christmas time. Jaypee is one of my few good friends. Can't spend much time with this guy since he stays in town while me and Casper moved to the city. We just visit him every now and then whenever we went back town. Here we were watching a tribal dance practice in our town.

Need Washing???

A little girl had been shopping with her Mom in Target. She must have been 6 years old, this beautiful red haired, freckle-faced image of innocence. It was pouring heavily outside. The kind of rain that gushes over the top of rain gutters, so much in a hurry to hit the earth it has no time to flow down the spout. We all stood there under the awning and just inside the door of the Target.

We waited, some patiently, others irritated because nature messed up their hurried day. I am always mesmerized by rainfall. I got lost in the sound and sight of the heavens washing away the dirt and dust of the world. Memories of running, splashing so carefree as a child came pouring in as a welcome reprieve from the worries of my day.The little voice was so sweet as it broke the hypnotic trance we were all caught in "Mom let's run through the rain.", she said. "What?", Mom asked. "Lets run through the rain!", she repeated. "No, honey. We'll wait until it slows down a bit", Mom replied.

This young child waited about another minute and repeated: "Mom, let's run through the rain.'' "We'll get soaked if we do.", Mom said. "No, we won't, Mom... That's not what you said this morning", the young girl said as she tugged at her Mom's arm. "This morning? When did I say we could run through the rain and not get wet?'Don't you remember? When you were talking to Daddy about his cancer?" You said, : 'If God can get us through this, he can get us through anything! '"

The entire crowd stopped dead silent. I swear you couldn't hear anything but the rain. We all stood silently. No one came or left in the next few minutes.

Mom paused and thought for a moment about what she would say. Now some would laugh it off and scold her for being silly. Some might even ignore what was said. But this was a moment of affirmation in a young child's life. A time when innocent trust can be nurtured so that it will bloom into faith.

"Honey, you are absolutely right. Let's run through the rain. If GOD let's us get wet, well maybe we just needed washing," Mom said.

Then off they ran. We all stood watching, smiling and laughing as they darted past the cars and yes, through the puddles. They held their shopping bags over their heads just in case. They got soaked. But they were followed by a few who screamed and laughed like children all the way to their cars.

And yes, I did. I ran. I got wet. I needed washing.

Circumstances or people can take away your material possessions, they can take away your money, and they can take away your health. But no one can ever take away your precious memories...So, don't forget to make time and take the opportunities to make memories everyday. To everything there is a season and a time to every purpose under heaven.


I HOPE YOU STILL TAKE THE TIME TO RUN THROUGH THE RAIN.

They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them, but then an entire life to forget them.

Alch3mist's Simple Reminders IV

Sometimes in our relentless effort to find the person we love, we fail to recognize and appreciate the people who love us. We miss out on so many beautiful things simply because we allow ourselves to be enslaved by our own selfish concerns. Go for the man of deeds and not for the man of words, for you will find rewarding happiness, not with the man you love but with the man who loves you more. The best lovers are those capable of loving from a distance far enough to allow the person to grow but ever too far to feel the love within your being. To let go of someone doesn't mean you have to stop loving, it only means that you allow that person to find his own happiness without expecting him to come back. Letting go is not just setting the other person free, but is also setting yourself free from all the bitterness, hatred, and anger that you keep in your heart. Do not let the bitterness take away your strength and weaken your faith, and never allow pain to dishearten you; but rather let yourself grow with wisdom in bearing it. You may find peace in loving someone from a distance not expecting something in return. But be careful, for this can sustain life but can never give enough room for us to grow. We can all survive with just beautiful memories of the past, but real peace and happiness come only with open acceptance of what reality is today. There comes a time in our lives when we chance upon someone so nice and beautiful and we just find ourselves so intensely attracted to that person. This feeling soon becomes a part of our everyday lives and eventually consumes our thoughts and actions. The sad part of it is when we begin to realize that this person feels nothing more for us than just a friendship. We start our desperate attempt to get noticed and be closer, but in the end our efforts are still unrewarded and we end up being sorry for ourselves. You don't have to forget someone you love. What you need to learn is how to accept the verdict of reality without being bitter or sorry for yourself. Believe me, you would be better off giving that dedication and love to someone more deserving. Don't let your heart run your life, be sensible and let your mind speak for itself. Listen not only to your feelings but to reason as well. Always remember that if you lose someone today, it means that someone better is coming tomorrow. If you lose love that doesn't mean you failed in love. Cry if you have to, but make sure that tears wash away the hurt and the bitterness that the past has left with you. Let go of yesterday and love will find its way back to you. When it does, pray that it may be the love that will stay and last a lifetime.

There are two ways to live your life:

One is as though nothing is a miracle.

The other is as though everything is a miracle.

There is no mistake so painful that love cannot forgive.

There is no past so bitter that love cannot accept.

And no love so little that we cannot start all over with...

(C) All Rights Reserved 2008

Such A Temptation

Food, Food, Beer and a Bunch of Friends

Last Saturday, we went to Carcar City with a whole bunch of friends. We went south of Cebu to one of the oldest town of Cebu (now a city). We took the bus and arrived at our destination in two hours time. Everyone was hungry so we ditched in the dinner room where Jack's mom and dad were preparing dinner. We sang songs after dinner and drank beer.

Sunday Grill

Dub Dub and I went to a Sunday Mass. We bought half a kilo of pork because we wanted to have grilled pork for lunch that Sunday. We kid each other while starting the whole thing. He started the fire and we had fun doing it. We like doing things together. We've been together for quite a long time. I hope things won't change no matter what's wrong. I always want him around.

Kean Matthew's First Party

It was a Saturday, November 15. We overslept and we had a lot of things to be done. So, I got up and started to make coffee and bread for me and Dub Dub. I woke him up with a kiss. We ate some bread and drank a cup of coffee. We took a shower together, teasing each other with splashes of water. The water was cold and we don't like cold water. We want it hot and sizzly. *wink!*

We went to fetch Dub Dub's Mom. She wants to go with us to buy party stuffs for his grandson.

Two-and-A-Half Men

November 11, was K-Matt's first birthday. Dub Dub and I bought a birthday cake for K-Matt. After Dub Dub's work and after my work-out, we meet in a mall and bought the cake that we wanted. It was just a simple birthday cake. It is the thought that counts actually. *wink!* We wanted to greet our sweet kid on that day. We sang a birthday song and he was so happy to see his first birthday cake. It was a Tuesday night and we had work on the following day so we stayed for a while and ate some of the cake and then we promised to hold a party on the weekend. Just a simple party. Nothing much. Just to make K-Matt happy.

I'm (Still) Falling For You...

Dub Dub and I have little quarrels. I feel so sad about it. It will soon come to a point that it won't be healthy for our relationship anymore. I always assure Dub Dub that love him so much. Nothing has changed. I may have failed him at times or he might have failed me at times I make sure that the issue is resolved always. We still love with each other. Will be turning 3/4 of a year by then. I'm still happy I have Dub Dub by my side. If I can't hear your heartbeat Dub Dub, it means you're too far away...

The Alch3mist: Then and Now...

Buddha: Three Things That Matters

This is a text message from someone I used to date. He made me feel loved, important and significant to his life. But we have to move on, let go and set things free. Sometimes, things are not meant to last. Read on and learn like me...

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Let go!

Let God!

And then move one!

This is one lesson in life we have to learn.

Summer is not forever.

So is youth and beauty.

So is health and wealth.

So is power.

Life is more than letting go than holding on!

Buddha puts it beautifully:

"In the end, only three things matter:

how deeply we loved;

how fully we lived;

and how we let go of things or people not meant for us." <<

Love

Love is not when you can sleep,
it is when you want to keep your eyes open.

Love is not when you keep holding on,
it is when you learn to let go.

Love is not when you kill yourself with jealousy,
it is when you understand.

Love is not when you fall for someone,
it is when you catch the person when he falls.

Love is not when you see him everywhere,
it is when you close you eyes and he is still there.

Love is not when you tell him what you feel,
it is when you give up everything for his sake.

And love is not when you think you were blind,
it is when you knew you were wrong but you did not mind.


Lt. Kilik

Lovers for Achilles

Death of Patroclus

Boys with faces like
calm puddles
begging to be
messied up

stirred
aroused

deliver themselves
to his doorstep

messy hair
morning mouth

He welcomes them in
entertains their curiosity
with dry well
the empty wealth
of his years

Lovers for Achilles

He eats them
like fruit cake

Lovers for Achilles

He collects them
like flies

Lovers for Achilles
(are always good-byes)





K. M. Gantuangco

People

People change no matter how hard they try not to. As you grow older, you mature. And with each new level of maturity, it will come up of different ideas, different needs and different wants. The person who was perfect for you at twenty could be the person you hate most when you're thirty-five. Find someone who will grow old with you, change with you, laugh with you and cry with you. A person who fills in where you lack. A person whom you can fill for when they are lacking.

But, what about the perfect person?

They do not exist!

There are no perfect people, only people perfect for each other.

I have found mine.
Hope you find yours.

So Many Questions

I went home from work about half past two in the morning. Dub Dub was waiting by the roadside to meet me. I went down the bus and there he was standing. It was nice seeing him. I always feel safe when I’m with him. He’s tall about 5’ 11" and he puts his arms over me when we walk and nobody is seeing us. *wink!* Well, we walk home because the compound’s gate is about 8 meters from the main road. We were kidding each other and when Dub Dub whispered that he loves me. I just looked at him and then smiled and I told him that I love him just the same and that I was so glad to be home. He kissed me on the head just like a kid and I find it so sweet. I remember one time. He was away for the night because he had to stay with his scouts during the school camping. I was not able to send him updates on my whereabouts so he sent me a SMS instead. You know what it said? Well, he said in his SMS: "Dub Dub, it’s only you that I love. There is no one else. Please don’t look for another sweet prince, no one well ever be as sweet as me, okay?" I smiled when I read this SMS. It made my heart beat faster and slower at the same time. I just wanna look at his face when his asleep. One time, while watching him sleep, a tear rolled down me cheek. I never thought I would be right for Dub Dub. I wanna be with him for as long as forever. I undressed when we got home. Stripping slowly. Teasing him as I always do. Just to make the light the fire a bit higher. Hahahaha! I just had my underwear on and he was wearing my tee and his briefs too. He took off his brief and I went to bed with him with my undies on. I was a bit disappointed that night so I was kind of not in the mood. I lay down in the bed with my back on him for a while. I then turned around to face him and then I slowly reached for his head and then I gave him a passionate kiss. He couldn’t stop. He was so horny too. We haven’t had sex for about five days straight. He kissed me passionately. Dub Dub went on top of me and he kissed, sucked and licked my neck and ears. I was getting hornier with each kiss. He went down slowly. He sucked on my nipples so hard that I moaned in pure ecstasy. He went down my belly-button and then he licked my most erotic part of my torso, my belt of Apollo. He licked it like crazy I was moaning like never before. He motioned that I turn around because he wants to kiss my back. He kissed and licked my back and my triceps. I was moaning my hard-on was raging. He went down my butt and then licked and sucked my upper leg and then he licked the back of my knee which gave me much pleasure. Dub Dub then moved down and licked and sucked my toes. I cried in sweet pleasure. I moaned in sweet ecstasy. He flipped over and he saw my hard-on. He stroked it and then licked it. He sucked the bell-end shaped and then he slowly went down. He let my dick slid slowly into his hot mouth. He sucked it hard I could cum in his mouth that soon. He then positioned himself on top of me. He lubed up his ass and then he gently sat on my dick slowly until I was totally inside him. He was doing me. It was so good. He was on top of me for about 10 minutes then I told him that he should lie down and I should do the humping. So, I positioned to fuck him in a way that my whole dick went inside him. He was moaning in deep ecstasy. We were enjoying the moment until we both came together. I squirted my man juices inside him and he squirted his on his abs. I rested on top of him and we kissed passionately. We feel asleep hugging each other. We woke up at around nine in the morning. Still in-love with each other.

The Perfect Catch

Lovers at sunset.

It’s been a while. Well, work is exhausting me. I feel like quitting but I don’t have a choice. I have to stay on this job. *sigh!* The grass is no more greener on the other side, you know. It’s just the same. The challenges that you see now will be different from the challenges that you will see on the other side. I have plans. Lots of them. I try to balance my job, my family and my Dub Dub. I’m glad he has been with me through all this time. It’s always nice to go home and find your love one sleeping soundly; then he wakes up lightly to see you smiling and then he kisses you back and then falls back to sleep again. Last Monday, we phoned in sick for work. We felt like we don’t want to work. We just wanna spend the whole day together. If we could only quit our job and be with each other day-in and day-out, then we would do that. Reality says that we have to work to survive. We cannot live in the city. I could still remember how lonely it is if you don't have someone to confide your frustrations to. I’ve been there. I’ve been fooled. I’ve been hurt. I was almost afraid to to love again but then broken hearts found each other. We been there for each other and I have sacrificed a lot if things for Dub Dub and Dub Dub has sacrificed a lot of things for me as well. Dub Dub loves me so much that he chose me over his family. I’m worth the slaps on his face and a punch in his chest. I almost let go of Dub Dub because he failed one time but I kept him because he is worth the pain and tears. He’s a perfect catch. There are a lot of fishes in the ocean as there are boys in the LGBT network. He’s one of a kind a rare fish and you couldn’t find that fish anywhere in the ocean. I swam the ocean, fought sharks and jellyfish. I’ve swam with turtles, been swallowed by a whale and almost been breakfast. I’ve search the entire ocean looking for him and there he is, the perfect catch. I’m just glad always that Dub Dub has stayed with me through all these months. We vowed to be there for each other through thick and thin. I will do my best to keep him. He’s a catch and men like him are rare. They’re almost extinct. *grin!* I’m glad that we found each other. I’m glad we are together, completing each other’s heartbeat. Lub Dub, Lub Dub, Lub Dub, Lub Dub…

Unplanned Weekend "Go-Away"

The sun rising in Calubian.

I went on leave from Thursday ‘til Friday two weeks ago. I only told him that I went on leave on Thursday because I want to surprise him by dinner time. I want to spend time with Dub Dub. I planned the whole weekend too. I want to go swimming and then eat out. We like pizza and pineapple juice a lot. We like watching movies too. We haven’t watched a good movie lately. Well, this was s’pose to be my plan. However, his professor invited him to go to Leyte. It’s another big island east of Cebu.

We had a big fight. I don’t and to go and if I don’t go, I won’t let him go with them either.

The beautiful view of the strait from the next hill top.

Finally, I decided that we go. It was for fun anyway and we would also be earning a bit of money. It would help us in our daily expenses as well. The trip was free anyway and we need not to pay a single penny.

So off we go to Leyte. We took the ferry for 4 hours then we had a road trip for 2 hours. When we reached our destination, it was a great place. The small shrine is located on top of a hill overlooking the strait between Biliran Island and north-west of Leyte.

We had fun, even if we only had less time to sleep. Early in the morning, we went back to the city. That was Sunday. The skies in Leyte were dark. It promised rain and unfortunately we were drenched in rain. For two hours, we were soaking wet. I got sick. In fact, I still have my colds and cough. We were also absent the Monday after. We were so tired so we had to stay home together.

The Weekend in the Farm (Part II)

Me and Dub Dub bathing in the Pacific.

Sunday morning. We woke up to the cold air and the smell of the fresh fish that is being fried. I missed eating fish. Me and Dub Dub like "inun-unan" or fish cooked in vinegar. We liked "okra" or lady’s finger or scientific name is "Abelmoschus esculentus". Well, we like it steamed. We dip it in soy sauce mixed in vinegar to taste. We had milk, too. I like milk since then. I like it fresh. No sugar added. Just the taste of lactose. I like soy bean milk and Dub Dub’s milk as well. *wink!*

Dad went to the market early to buy fresh meat and fresh fish. We’ll have a picnic by the ocean. He cooked "humba". It’s pork cooked in water and sugar. Well, it’s a Chinese cooking. Passed on from generation to generation. And he’ll be passing it on to me. My dad is of Chinese decent you see. Dub Dub and I broiled the stuffed mackerel. Well, we have lots of these in town. We have tuna and salmon too. Our town is beside the Pacific Ocean and near the Philippine Deep.

Well, to give you a background. It’s a submarine trench in the floor of the Philippine Sea of the western North Pacific Ocean bordering the east coast of the island of Mindanao and tip of Leyte, where my town is located. The abyss, which reaches the second greatest depth known in any ocean, was first plumbed in 1927 by the German ship Emden. The reading obtained at that time was the first indication of the actual near-record depth. In 1945 the USS Cape Johnson recorded a sounding of 34,440 feet (10,497 m), slightly exceeded by the 34,578-foot sounding originally made by the Danish Galathea in 1951. They say it is also rich in liquid hydrogen (deuterium). The fuel needed to propel rockets.

Going back to the main subject, we were broiling fish. Me and Dub Dub had stuffed the fish with onions, tomatoes and garlic. We had fun broiling it. My sister was there too. We talked and laughed while we were doing it. I was almost burnt when I tried to turned the fish to it’s other side to cook. It’s not that easy as you think. You need a lot of concentration. Hahahahaha!

Everybody was working to get everything done. Mum prepared the picnic basket. When every thing was ready, we got dressed. Well, not really dressed. We were not going to a party; we’re going for a splash in the water. We were good. As usual, Dub Dub and I would just strip and then with our briefs on, we hurried down to the water. I was refreshing and the water was cool. The sky was clear. My Dad’s cousin was there too and her husband and her youngest kid. We had "tuba" or the local wine from coconut. It’s one of the town’s favorite. A party would not be complete without it. We had "pansit" too. Another of Dad’s Chinese cuisine. We had fun. We enjoyed the whole time. The longest weekend we had. We went home at around half past two. We had to go to Church because Mum wanted us too. Dub Dub wouldn’t want to miss church either.

My Dad is Buddhist and my Mum’s Catholic. I’m both so it makes my life neutral. Hahahahahaha! I practice a lot of Chinese culture as well.

We had early dinner too because were going to see the circus and stunts by 7 o’clock. Well, so it goes. Overall, It was a fun weekend and a great Sunday for all of us.

The Weekend in the Farm (Part I)

Me and my sister Karen.

We went home last August. It was really nice to be home again. I missed home and my family so much. Dub Dub missed them too. He has become part of my family too. Everybody was happy to see both of us. Saturday was fun. We arrived early morning on a Saturday. Everyone greeted us with a smile. We ate breakfast and then we snoozed off. We haven’t had much sleep on the boat and on the bus. I was nice to sleep on my bed again.

We woke up around lunch. Dad had cooked shrimp for us. I liked seafood. These are the things that I miss when I’m in the city. My Dad’s a great cook. Home cooking is what I always look forward too when I’m home. Mom’s best at desserts and my sister is good at cakes and pastries.
We had a nice lunch. You know what’s nice to do after a nice lunch? Yeah! Cat nap! Hahahahaha! We snoozed for a while and then woke up at around half past two. We got dressed and we took a dip in the ocean. Can you believe it? It’s the Pacific Ocean. Well, part of it. We were just on our briefs. Everyone was looking at us. Hahahaha!

We went home after. All dripping wet! *wink!* We took a bath. This time, it’s fresh water. Nice cool water from the deep well. Our deep well. I’ve been bathing with this water since I was born. Hahahaha! We went to the town’s wet market. We bought some little stuff. Dub Dub’s gonna cook dinner. He’ll cook sour pork soup. We had everything except for one thing. The "talbos ng kamote" or potato sprouts. It won’t be complete without it. I mean the taste would slightly be different without it. Anyway, we had to deal with it. We had a nice dinner. We were talking and laughing.

In the farm, we take our dinner early. Between half past five to half past six. Well, don’t ask me why. It’s just the way it is. It was almost the town’s feast day. The streets were almost crowded. People here and there. I saw a lot of my old friends and my old teachers. We went out on a Saturday night to the town’s plaza. We took pictures of ourselves. We ate popcorn. We had mango shake too. I wasn’t a shake after all but it tasted like mango to be fair. Hahahahaha! We had wacky pictures. Dub Dub had nice tricks with the camera. We just wanna chill out. The city is an exhausting place to live in. If I could live with my family and not work; well why not? Nothing beats staying home. Hahahaha!

We went home. Everybody went to bed. Me and Dub Dub stayed late. We watched TV and a few porn movies. Hahahaha! We went to bed horny. Horny as hell. Well, you know what happened? We had a nice crazy sex! It was so nice we came together. I came inside him and he felt how warm my cum was. We kissed while I was still inside him. His tight boy pussy was warm as well. We cuddled and I pulled off. We didn’t wash up. We just snuggled together. The smell of our cum in the air.

The Jar and the Two Bottles of Beer

City lights.

When things in your life seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and the beer. A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, he wordlessly picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was. The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was. The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous "Yes!'"The professor then produced two Beers from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar effectively filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed. "Now," said the professor as the laughter subsided, "I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life. The golf balls are the important things---your family, your children, your health, your friends and your favorite passions---and if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full."The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house and your car. The sand is everything else---the small stuff. "If you put the sand into the jar first," he continued, "There is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff you will never have room for the things that are important to you.""Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Spend time with your children. Spend time with your parents. Visit with grandparents. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your spouse out to dinner. Play another 18. There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal. Take care of the golf balls first---the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand."One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the beer represented. The professor smiled and said, "I'm glad you asked.""The beer just shows you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple beer with a friend."

What A Real Boyfriend Could Do?

When he walks away from you mad - [Follow him]
When he stare's at your lips - [Kiss him]
When he pushes you or hit's you - [Grab him and don’t let go]
When he start's cursing at you - [Kiss him and tell him you love him]
When he's quiet - [Ask him what’s wrong]
When he ignores you - [Give him your attention]
When he pulls away - [Pull him back]
When you see him at his worst - [Tell him he's beautiful]
When you see him start crying - [Just hold him and don’t say a word]
When you see him walking - [Sneak up and hug his waist from behind]
When he's scared - [Protect him]
When he lay's him head on your shoulder - [Tilt his head up and kiss him]
When he steal's your favorite hat - [Let him keep it and sleep with it for a night]
When he tease's you - [Tease him back and make him laugh]
When he doesn’t answer for a long time - [Reassure him that everything is okay]
When he looks at you with doubt - [Back yourself up with the TRUTH]
When he say's that he likes you - [He really does more than you could understand]
When he grabs your hands - [Hold his and play with his fingers]
When he bumps into you - [Bump into him back and make him laugh]
When he tells you a secret - [Keep it safe and untold]
When he looks at you in your eyes - [Don’t look away until he does]
WHEN HE MISSES YOU - [HES HURTING INSIDE]
When you break his heart - [The pain NEVER really goes away]
When he says it’s over - [He STILL wants you to be his]
- Stay on the phone with him even if he’s not saying anything.
- DON'T let him have the last word.
-NEVER call him hot! Pretty and beautiful is so much better.
- Say you love him more than he could ever love you.
- Argue that he is the best boy ever.
- When he's mad hug him tight and don't let go.
- When he says he's ok don’t believe it, talk with him.
- When he says he's sorry, he truly means it.
- Because 10 years later he'll remember you.
- Call him at 12:00am on him birthday to tell him you love him.
- Call him before you sleep and after you wake up.
- Treat him like he's all that matters to you.
- Tease him and let him tease you back.
- Stay up all night with him when he's sick.
- Watch his favorite movie with him or his favorite show even if you think it’s stupid.
- Give him the world.
- Let him wear your clothes.
- When he's bored and sad, hang out with him.
- Let him know he's important.
- Kiss him in the pouring rain.
When he runs up at you crying, the first thing you say is; "Who's ass am I kicking today baby?"

Workplace Dilemmas

If you are a relatively junior employee at your company, though you carry out a very important role, you may not always be recognized. You might also face some of the following challenges:

1. Little fulfillment at work
2. Long working hours
3. Conflicting demands on your time and loyalty
4. Little balance between personal life and work commitments
5. Tight deadlines
6. Time management pressures
7. Strained relationships with the important people in your life
8. Tight personal finances
9. Lack of any say at work
10. Internal politics and a rigid company structure
11. Bullying within the workplace
12. Few promotional opportunities

You are therefore faced with a number of dilemmas in your workplace.

On the one hand you want to be involved in rewarding, enjoyable and fulfilling work, get recognition and promotion for your efforts, and be appreciated for the key role you play in the company.

On the other hand you want a balanced life with time for the things you really want to do with a full and interesting social life. Of course you want to have clarity about your career, job duties and you want to continue to be healthy, fit and stress free.

So what’s the best way forward?! How can you too achieve a Zen like happiness at work?

One key to resolving these seemingly conflicting challenges is to get clear about just how much you love the work you do. Is what you do something you jump out of bed every morning, or would you rather be doing something else?

How motivated are you with your work? And how do you cope with the day to day routine office work?

A UK survey last year found that almost 2 out of 3 people are dissatisfied with their jobs. And I am sure there is a similar situation in the USA and other parts of the developed world. This means that they are either apathetic about finding what they really love doing or they are resigned to being in this situation.

No matter how good things are in other parts of your life such as family, social life and relationships, work is a major part of your life, and not to be neglected.

Since for now you have chosen to be in the job you are in, it is up to you for the time being to make the most of what you do. Of course in the long term, you can either change your job or even embark on a new career. But for now, you can get to love more of what you do right now.

Assuming that in the short term you are not able to change jobs, there are a number of things you can do to begin enjoying more of what you currently do. Ask yourself - is it the job or is it you? And what can you do to make your current work more enjoyable?
Stop acting the victim. YOU are responsible for your life and if you can’t immediately change the job you are in, then it is up to you to make the most of it.

Here are some simple tips for getting to enjoy your current job.

1. On the way to your workplace, get yourself motivated to face the day. Think of how the work you have allows you to have your life outside of it, such as a great social life. A positive attitude will make the day more pleasant and productive.

2. Keep your work in perspective. You can only do the best you can in each situation. Look beyond yourself and your work, and consider the bigger picture. Do some voluntary work to gain a broader outlook. Find a way to contribute to society in general.

3. Remember that you are more than your work. Do not have your identity too strongly tied to the job you do. Give up thinking that your work life “should” be a certain way. Such expectations of what you were supposed to be, as set by your parents and teachers, stop you from enjoying what you currently do.

4. Plan your time. In your to-do list include long term projects as well as the more imminent things that need doing. Prioritise your to-do list - do the most important things first. When performing any task, ask yourself - is this the best use of my time? Schedule in enough time for your studies etc.

5. Concentrate on the task at hand. Do not let yourself be distracted by worrying about all the other things to be done or losing energy over the undesirable situation you find yourself in. Stay in the moment.

6. Be ruthless and take care of a task before it gets on a possible procrastination list. For example, sort your morning post immediately in one go – open it, file it, act on it or bin it there and then.

7. Clarify anytime you are not sure or where you are faced with conflicting demands. The more clear and upfront you are with your manager and the other people you work with, the better it will be for you in the long term.

8. Delegate wherever appropriate. Decide if there is anything that can be delegated, or that more fairly belongs to someone else’s work load. Always remember the “3D” rule – do it, dump it or delegate it - never handle a piece of paper twice.

10. Have regular breaks. Get away from your normal workplace even if only for five minutes. Try taking a break from the laptop, emails and do leave the mobile behind. Make sure that you do have that lunch break – it is not just for food but also for fresh air and a mental break.
Eat a healthy lunch and if you must snack, make sure it is healthy too – an apple rather than a bag of chips. Look for ways of energizing yourself other than from adrenaline and caffeine.

11. Learn to relax no matter how challenging the work gets or how demanding your bosses become. At the end of the day it is only a job, and you are much more than that. In years to come, you will look back and wonder what the fuss was.

12. Contribute towards creating a pleasant work environment. Do not gossip in the office as it just creates negativity all around. Do not listen to any gossip either. Minimize your time with people that you do not resonate with or like. Learn to have more fun at work. Laugh more and chill out. Perform with a more fun orientated approach.

13. Review your day before you leave for home. Look at what worked well, and what could be improved the next day. If you feel satisfied with the day’s work, then why not reward yourself later that day. You deserve it.

14. Switch off once you leave work. You are already at work a third of your time, so do not continue to keep it buzzing in your head during your supposed free time. Mentally say good bye to your work space the moment you leave for home.

See your work as a game. Life is meant to be fun and if you are going to spend a third of it at work, you might as well enjoy the game.

The Power of One

1. Give one kiss every day. One extra kiss a day equals 5 kisses in a week.

2. Read one book every month. Expanding your knowledge will help you become more successful. Read books related to your industry or that will provide insight to helping you improve your skill in a specific area.

3. Ask one more question before you go. Before you starting your day, ask yourself one more question. This question might give you the additional insight you need to more effectively position your day ahead.

4. Pause for one moment longer than usual before responding to a prospect’s question or request. Known as the pregnant pause, this often prompts the other person to blurt out something they had not intended to say. The secret behind this strategy is that most people are uncomfortable with silence and will begin talking to fill the “dead” air space.

5. Get to the office one hour early. Remember the expression “The early bird gets the worm”. That one extra hour first thing in the morning can be the most productive time of the day. You have a better chance to reach decision-makers, there are fewer distractions, and you can often achieve more in that 60 minutes than in several hours.

6. Address objections one more time before giving up. Too many sales people give up too soon when faced with objections. I’m not suggesting that you beat your customer into submission in order to close the sale. However, I do recommend that you tackle each objection one more time before you give up.

7. Send one encouragement to someone who has been sitting on the fence. Sometimes, people need that little push and encouragement to move forward. But, in many cases, their time is occupied by other projects and priorities which means they are not focused on your solution. Gentle reminders are often appreciated providing you don’t follow up so frequently you appear to be stalking them. Even though they may not be ready to make that particular buying decision, you will help keep your name in their mind.

Although it is a tiny number, one can make a very powerful impact both on your life and career. One extra kiss every day, week or month, depending on your how you give it, can make a significant impact on your sales by the end of the day. The next time you think about giving up, consider the fact that you might be just one phone call, encouragement, or one kiss away from making someone else's life beautiful.

A Test of Faith and Love

Lately, Dub Dub and I have been over a lot of fights and arguments. Since the day that Dub Dub did what was not suppose to be done. It all seems that our Saturdays abd Sundays are cursed. We always have that argument over simple things. Last Saturday was the worst, Dub Dub cried so much. I felt bad as well becuase I'm making it hard for him. It seems that I put all the grudges that I have for him in anything that he does or anything that he says. I was so hurt when he sentd me the following text message: "I love you too Lub Lub... I love you until I'm existing... ;-) Please just minimize your begrudges on me..."

I was so touched by these words. I felt that with these little arguments that we are having every now and then will strip the love in our hearts. I don't want that to happen. I don't want to lose Dub Dub. I love him and I have kept him within me despite the hurtful thing that he has done. I took him back. Why? I took him back because I love him. We have bad times. We will alwalys have bad times. But, do we sacrifice all the good times just because of the bad times? No! We should not. These bad times wil test your faith between each other and will test the love within you, between you. Let the fire of love continue burning. Let no one fall out of love. We will keep each other safe. I know we will get through this if we stay together. If we patch things up. It's like a house you know. When a light bulb burns out, you don't buy a new house. You fix the light bulb. Patching things up will build your relationship. You will see that there are a lot of things the you have not discover yet. Both partners should be open to each other. No secrets. No lies. Just pure love and honesty.

I really love it when we can't express our feeling to each other. You know what we do? We either write a letter about what we don't like and what made us feel down and then we take turns reading it to each other. Then we make our own comments. Funny?! Yeah, I love it. Or we send a text to each other even if we are just beside each other. Then, we give each other a hug. A heart-warming hug. It lifts our spirit so much and then things are patched up.

Alch3mist's Simple Reminders III

Here we go again. Life is full of surprises so ponder on these few thoughts I've heard and read. First, have a firm handshake. Look people in the eye. Sing in the shower. Own a great stereo system. If in a fight, hit first and hit hard. Keep secrets. Never give up on anybody. Miracles happen everyday. Always accept an outstretched hand. Be brave. Even if you're not, pretend to be. No one can tell the difference. Whistle. Avoid sarcastic remarks. Choose your life's mate carefully. From this one decision will come 90 percent of all your happiness or misery. Make it a habit to do nice things for people who will never find out. Lend only those books you never care to see again. Never deprive someone of hope; it might be all that they have. When playing games with children, let them win. Give people a second chance, but not a third. Be romantic. Become the most positive and enthusiastic person you know. Loosen up. Relax. Except for rare life-and-death matters, nothing is as important as it first seems. Don't allow the phone to interrupt important moments. It's there for your convenience, not the caller's.Be a good loser. Be a good winner. Think twice before burdening a friend with a secret. When someone hugs you, let them be the first to let go. Be modest. A lot was accomplished before you were born. Keep it simple. Beware of the person who has nothing to lose. Don't burn bridges. You'll be surprised how many times you have to cross the same river. Live your life so that your epitaph could read, "No Regrets". Be bold and courageous. When you look back on life, you'll regret the things you didn't do more than the one's you did. Never waste an opportunity to tell someone you love them. Remember no one makes it alone. Have a grateful heart and be quick to acknowledge those who helped you. Take charge of your attitude. Don't let someone else choose it for you. Visit friends and relatives when they are in hospital; you need only stay a few minutes. Begin each day with some of your favorite music. Once in a while, take the scenic route. Send a lot of Valentine cards. Sign them, 'Someone who thinks you’re terrific.' Answer the phone with enthusiasm and energy in your voice. Keep a note pad and pencil on your bed-side table. Million-dollar ideas sometimes strike at 3 a.m.! Show respect for everyone who works for a living, regardless of how trivial their job. Send your loved ones flowers. Think of a reason later. Make someone's day by paying the toll for the person in the car behind you. Become someone's hero. Count your blessings. Compliment the meal when you're a guest in someone's home. Wave at the children on a school bus. Remember that 80 per cent of the success in any job is based on your ability to deal with people. Don't expect life to be fair. There you go! I've highlighted the few thoughts whom I think is most important of all for me. Life has its ups and downs. Just learn to be flexible like the bamboo. When strong winds hit them, they bend and never break. Yes we should be strong but we have to flexible at certain times also. Cheers!

Carrot, Egg or Coffee?

You will never look at a cup of coffee the same way again. A young woman went to her mother and told her about her life and how things were so hard for her. She did not know how she was going to make it and wanted to give up. She was tired of fighting and struggling. It seemed that as one problem was solved, a new one arose. Her mother took her to the kitchen. She filled three pots with water and placed each on a high fire. Soon the pots came to a boil. In the first, she placed carrots, in the second she placed eggs, and the last she placed ground coffee beans. She let them sit and boil, without saying a word. In about twenty minutes she turned off the burners. She fished the carrots out and placed them in a bowl. She then pulled the eggs out and placed them in a bowl. Then she ladled the coffee out and placed it in a bowl. Turning to her daughter, she asked, "Tell me, what do you see?" "Carrots, eggs, and coffee," she replied. She brought her closer and asked her to feel the carrots. She did and noted that they were soft. She then asked her to take an egg and break it. After pulling off the shell, she observed the hard-boiled egg. Finally, she asked her to sip the coffee. The daughter smiled as she tasted its rich aroma. The daughter then asked, "What does it mean, Mother?" Her mother explained that each of these objects had faced the same adversity -- boiling water -- but each reacted differently. The carrot went in strong, hard and unrelenting. However, after being subjected to the boiling water, it softened and became weak. The egg had been fragile. Its thin outer shell had protected its liquid interior. But, after sitting through the boiling water, its inside became hardened. The ground coffee beans were unique, however. After they were in the boiling water, they had changed the water. "Which are you?" she asked her daughter. "When adversity knocks on your door, how do you respond? Are you a carrot, an egg, or a coffee bean?" Think of this: Which am I? Am I the carrot that seems strong, but with pain and adversity? Do I wilt and become soft and lose my strength? Am I the egg that starts with a malleable heart, but changes with the heat? Did I have a fluid spirit, but after a death, a breakup, a financial hardship or some other trial, have I become hardened and stiff? Does my shell look the same, but on the inside am I bitter and tough with a stiff spirit and a hardened heart? Or am I like the coffee bean? The bean actually changes the hot water, the very circumstance that brings the pain. When the water gets hot, it releases the fragrance and flavor of your life. If you are like the bean, when things are at their worst, you get better and change the situation around you. When the hours are the darkest and trials are their greatest, do you elevate to another level? How do you handle adversity? Are you changed by your surroundings or do you bring life, flavor, to them? ARE YOU A CARROT, AN EGG, OR A COFFEE BEAN?

Regaining Trust

Trust in more important that monogamy. Regaining trust is so hard to do. You will have a series of difficulties and lot of doubts between partners. Dub Dub and I had a very nice relationship before. We trudted each other so much. We never had doubts until Dub Dub failed. I really felt so betrayed and I wanted to end the relationsip real time. I was thinking that, if he did it once, he could do it again. We've had a series of fights and arguements. We almost lose each others love just because we started to doubt each other.

Broken Heart

Dub Dub broke my heart. Sometimes people do things without really thinking. I'm still asking myself why did it happen. Was it special or was it merely the act itself? But the decesion depends on me. There is no guarantee that it will not happen again. So, I have to think a trillion times. I'm guessing that yesterday, I was in a kind of a denial. I was thinking that it did not happen and I was trying to accept it yesterday and was telling myself that it's okay and that I can move on. Last night was the only time it all sank in. I was really broken. In the back of my mind I was trying to fix things because of the time I have spent with Dub Dub and the comfort we have already established and the fear of doing it all over again. Starting over. I hope I'm sure of what I am doing. Whatever I do, I have to do it fot the right reasons. They say that a person who could afford to hurt me that much is not worthy of my love. If I think that I can be with him and forget what had happened and then just moved on. Then, that would be great. Why cry over a spilt milk. I have to forget about that things that have happened because if I do not, we will only end up begrudging him all of the time and we end up fighting.

Brent Corrigan

Brent Corrigan, (Sean Paul Lockhart, born 1986) is an American gay pornographic model who claims to have been born in 1986 in California. Corrigan started his career in pornography in 2004 at Cobra Video, as a young twink model in Every Poolboy's Dream. He quickly became one of Cobra's most famous performers even showing a double penetration scene with Brent Everett and Chase McKenzie in Schoolboy Crush.Corrigan is noted for his apparent display of pleasure when having anal sex. He performed in bareback sex scenes in his debut video and the 2006 release Cream BBoys, but a condom was used in all scenes starring both Corrigan and Brent Everett for Cobra. According to Cobra Video, he is a skateboarding enthusiast. Corrigan and Cobra Video have each created separate "official" websites promoting the performer.

Deny Yourself Not?

Bisexuality is the human sexual orientation which refers to the aesthetic, romantic, or sexual desire for people of either gender or of either sex.Gay is an adjective meaning "carefree", "happy", or "bright and showy"; however in modern usage, gay is a word usually used, as either a noun or adjective, to refer to same-sex sexual orientation; homosexuality.In short, being "bi" or "gay" is just a person's preference(s) of the people he likes to have sex with.However, it seems that in our country, the stereotype of a "gay" person is the effeminate or cross-dressing male who we see in beauty parlors or in the pageants we see on television. This was, I think due to Dolphy's portrayal of this subtype during the 1960's and 1970's. As a result, the straight-acting gays are now confused of where they should be, and now define themselves as "bi", when in truth they have no iota of interest in girls. Likewise, the effeminate bisexuals have also taken to calling themselves "gay" although they have wives whom they have sex on a regular basis.Moral: Stop confusing your sexual preferences with your personality. Either you're a straight heterosexual, an effeminate heterosexual, a straight bisexual, an effeminate bisexual, a straight-acting homosexual, an effeminate homosexual, a cross-dresser, or a transvestite. Each has its own definition.